I have two people right now that are really filling my brain. The bad guy and the good guy. I'm at that classic point in dating where the girl has the bad boy that drives her mad and the good guy that just doesn't make her heart skip. I'm soooo lucky not to be alone. Do not get me wrong, I'm not complaining. I'm just talking.
My bad boy is my Cowboy. This mofo has a s-l-a-m-m-i-n' body. I dig this body. I would draw and paint and sculpt this body. That is, if I had talent in any of these things. In all actuality, if this being were to model for me, nothing would get accomplished other than hands on study. I haven't slept with him mind you, I'm a lady. But he and the body he carries with him make me stupid. I forget that he yelled at me for no good reason, nearly cost me my job, hasn't shown me he could be trusted, and dips (eww). All it takes is a whiff of his shirt or a peek at his perfect little belly button and I'm on cloud nine. He makes my hoo hoo tingle. I want him madly and I can have him but I can't see this leading anywhere but a broken heart and low self esteem. But bless my stupid mind this boy makes me think it just might be worth it. He dreams of having tons of kids, working all his life, and living in a nice trailer home. Can anyone out there see me in this situation? After nibbling on his ear and feeling him shutter from hat to boot, I can't help but think I might just like that after all. He's stood me up, gotten at attitude with me and lost his temper in front of me. But he'll call me and just sit and watch me blow dry my hair...or he'll come up behind me and wrap his arms around me ever so slowly while I brush my teeth. He never fails to make me feel beautiful, even when I'm mad at him and wear mismatched clothes with my hair up and no make up. He lifts heavy objects for me and makes me melt. He fixes my leaky bath tub for me and I can't help but wrap my body around his while he works. I even smile at his boot print left in my nice white tub. My arms feel incomplete when he isn't in them. He even lets me talk about the future without taking me too seriously and running away. I told him the other day that he has to take care of his heart because I plan to live there for a while and make myself comfortable.
Then there's my good guy. He is not handsome in a traditional sense but he has a great personality and is quick to smile. Anyone who knows him, loves him. He has a speech impediment and his heart is too big for his body and his teeth are crooked but he makes me laugh and gives good hugs. I tells me I'm beautiful and works with my schedule even though it's so different from his. He was so nervous around me the other night that he bit right through his lip and drew blood. Can I hear an "awww." I would feel very safe with him and I do feel safe with him.
On the other hand...my Cowboy can embarrass the tar outta me and I still want to stick around and see what's next. He gets in his redneck truck, turns on his CB radio (I'm not kidding) and cat calls at old ladies. He tells kids not to drink beer while downing one. We get yelled at by at least one person every time we go out in public for one reason or another.
*contented sigh*
What would you do?
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